COMPLETELY ABSORBED BY VIETNAM

I've never felt so alive! The ambush was absolutely amazing. I even decided that while I was out there I didn't need my weapon, dangerous work of course, but that's the exciting part. When I had returned to the compound Mark was not too pleased with what I had done. He sat me down and long story short, we are officially now engaged. However, I am not too certain that that is what I want anymore. I don't know if I can see that house on Lake Erie or small children in my future either. I feel that Mark and I have grown apart while I have been here in Vietnam. I have grown much closer in fact to the country itself. I want to swallow this whole country, that's how I feel. I left the compound for about three weeks and when I finally returned I felt that I should go directly to the Greenies tent. I have more in common with those men now. They understand things that Mark does not. Mark tried to convince me to come back with him but I have decided that I will stay here, forever. I will not be coming back. I plan on leaving tomorrow, into the jungle I will walk and become completely absorbed by Vietnam.